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Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Ripley (tissue warning for those who are pet lovers)

To my Dear Ripley dog,
I love you and I already miss you immensly. My heart bleeds every moment since you have been gone. Your life was such an pleasure. You gave me nine years of unconditional love. I want to thank you for your life, thank you for your smiles. But I also want to tell you I am sorry. So many times in life humans seem to be... well too human... We have our faults and our downfalls. I feel in many ways I have failed. I was gone too often, I did not see when you started to hurt, I was too late and we humans could not figure out what to do to keep you with us in the physical state for longer. I will always second guess my decisions, I will feel pain over this. But I will seek peace in knowing I did what I felt like was the best possible thing in the end. I held you close to me. You left our world surrounded by your friends, and I hope that you were not scared. My hope for you know is that you are united with your two sons and Dodger, Rusty, Brandie and Boo. There will be others with you that you have never met as they have come and gone before you, but they will wait with you at the rainbow bridge until it is our time to be united. Until that time I will never forget you. You will live in my heart every one of my waking moments and my asleep moments also.
I have cried a day full and a river full of tears. You left unexpectantly. Somewhere in Heaven god must have needed a really good Dog.
But today I celebrate 9 years of wonderful memories. You came into my life and provided so much joy. You were the happiest dog I have ever known. The only time you were not happy was when you saw me getting ready for work. You lived every day to be by our side. It did not matter what we were doing as long as we were together. Your favorite words were " do you want to go see George?" and " lets go play frisbee!" I knew you were sick when you no longer wanted to chase the frisbee. I sure hope there are tons of them and someone to throw it for you at the Rainbow Bridge. Every time I throw a frisbee for Sabyr, Hannah and Kasey I will throw one for you too! You played agility with me because it made me happy. And we had many wonderful runs. Last year you told me you were done. For the most part I listened. You stopped being happy at jumping. And for that I only wish I would have pursued trying to figure out why. Perhaps we could have changed this outcome, but we will never know. It is a human flaw I guess. If ifs and buts were candy and nuts oh what a life this would be. That isn't quite the saying it is supposed to be but it fits better for the moment. We live our lives sometimes looking backwards. The last 24 hours has been full of If's and But's for me.
Ripley.... thank you for your smiles, for your tail wag (one speed all the time, and always swooshing to the right), for your chewbacca howl everytime you greeted me, for your willingness to wave hello at any given moment, thank you for giving many people such pleasure of knowing one of God's wonderful creatures, thank you for leaving with us 11 wonderful puppies who still live on in our lives, thank you for Ryott (I will cherish him as he is a lasting part of you) thank you for giving Brian and I 9 years of unconditional love. I hope you know you were loved, I hope you were as happy as you always appeared. To our Ripley dog we love you.... You will be sadly missed in our life and in many others. You were well known and touched many lives. I am grateful we were able to spend one last wonderful week together enjoying Camp. One week that was all for you and Kasey and Tressa. I am not sure how or even if I will be able to do Camp Gone to the Dogs without you. It was your favorite week of the year for 6 of your 9 years.
Chase frisbees hard my friend, I will never ever forget you.
June 8, 2000 - June 22, 2009


Lori said..., so sorry for your loss. We still mourn the loss of our dear Flat-Coated Retriever, Random..and that was 3 and a half years ago. Pets never leave our hearts and as much as it hurts when they leave us, the joy they bring us every day is worth it. Keeping you in my prayers!!!

Corinne said...

I am so sorry Ann. I know losing a dear furry member is difficult. They are so much a part of us and our home. I pray you will be comforted.

Lisa Brotherton said...

Ann, I am sorry for your loss. It hurts so bad to say goodbye. My heart and prayers are with you.

Matt and Pam Bean said...

Ann and Brian,

I am so sorry about Ripley. It was a year ago in January that we had to put my rotti down due to undetected bone cancer. I saw a rotti on the street the other day and just started crying. Remember the happy, as that will sustain you longer. I will pray that peace is upon your household (furry friends included). Hang in there, as there was a blessing in it too.

Many hugs,
pam and matt

Christina said...

I am so sorry for your loss Ann. We have had our furry baby for 7 years and I could not imagine my life without her. I will be keeping you in my prayers as you grieve your loss.

Cindy LaJoy said...

My dear Ann, how hard it is to lose those we love!! Animal love is as strong as human love...perhpas more at moments for the relationships are less complicated, more accepting, fully open.

You are struggling with much right now, and the emotions keep rising to the surface so quickly, I am sure.

Ripley was another one of your children, whose tender love and care will never be forgotten.

Jes said...

I am so sorry for your loss Ann! Crying with you,

Shelley and Brian said...

Thinking of you and praying you find peace. I know it is so very hard. Although they are pets they are like children and certainly members of the family.
Big Hug

Pamela said...

Oh, Ann, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Please know that I'm thinking of you and giving my O'Brien and Madigan a little scratch in honor of Ripley.

Jackie said...

Ann, I visit your blog on and off and could not read your post a few weeks ago. But tonight, I decided to read about Ripley. I am so sorry for your loss. It was just over a year ago that I said goodbye to my furbaby. In time your heart will heal. I am sure Ripley is chasing lots of frisbees while smiling down on you :)